Yeah I lost the password...

Someone mentioned lucid dreaming the other day and it inspired me to track down my username and password for my blog. Here's holping I remember to use it.
Sayonara for now!

Recent Developments

I am in a state of high iritation. This is because my uncle has taken our bathroom away to replace it with a new one. The snag is, it takes several days just to put the new shower unit in place of the bath. As a result I have not showered in roughly 2 days and counting. I am sweaty and my skin feels nasty despite me washing it in the sink every morning. Fortunately the magic of Lynx Dry keeps me from minging like week dead horse but it's still beginning to really irk me. It will be a great pleasure tomorrow night (fingers crossed) when I can finally finally slide into boiling hot fast running water and cook every square centimetre of my skin until I resemble a large crustacean who got on the wrong end of a net. Then I will finally step out, wrap myself in a towel which will be warm and fluffy and I will vigourously dry myself, drawing blood as necessary, until I am 100% clean.
Recently I've had a couple of really clear dreams, one involving Battlefield 2 and the other involving Full Metal Alchmist. I don't really remember them now but I do remember them being very clear which is a rarity now. Hopefully over the summer I will finally start to remember them properly when I have time in the mornings to write them down and plenty of extra sleep to encourage REM that produces these indescriblable visions.
I am also folding protein for science courtesy of the Folding@Home client which can be found at
http://folding.stanford.edu
It's one of those distributed computing projects where they borrow your idle cycles and turn them to the aid of fighting disease and aiding manking. Personally I was always more of a SETI fan myself but I'lll give it a go. It's quoting me around 20 days for it to finish this one workunit. Which is scary cause SETI took like a day MAX. This is obviously complicated stuff.

Edit: Now thats its gotten going its down to under two days. Also it seems SETI has just gotten a major upgrade not long ago so grab it and give it a whirl too. The Aliens will wub you

Another WoW related one

Another WoW related dream (as shown by the chat channels in it) and we were in the jungles of Stranglethorn as well. My friend Pete was there but I couldn't find him, only see him chatting to me. There was also a green child and a parrot in a cage. The parrot wanted me to let him out and the child just looked at me with these huge sad eyes...

Oooh the Sky Fortress song from Sonic 2 just came on

Last Night's Dream: Cast of Scrubs

This dream was a step forward I think, possibly because I'm writing it down instead of forgetting and another cause I'm fairly certain I was in it. It centered around me being in a cit and going through some normal life with the cast of Scrubs, understandable since I watched the whole of season 3 in the last couple of days.
Not much else I can remember but, It's a start.
in other news, my face feels weird, likes something is sucking up the moisture. I think I may have used too many cleansing products...

This is a sign

That I'm gonna be bad at personal relationships. I can't even remember to write in a journal that I started voluntarily. Maybe my heart isn't in it (or possibly since I'm talking about relationships, my penis ain't in it) but I honest to God have to find a way to make myself write in this. It's the only way I'm ever going to get lucid in my dreams is that if I do it properly. Please remember Matt. I'm planting this subconsciously in your head to JUST FUCKING DO IT!!
God I'm such an ass.

It's All Over...

The exams that is. Finsihed them a week ago and am now into 6th form. Have already launched into the courses, doing English, making charcoal and being bored to death by Psychology. It's not that the actual subject matter thats boring, I'm eating up the textbook but it's the teacher. It's all so kiddy and dumbed down feeling. Since she's the only teacher there's no hope of transferring to another class either. Dropping it is a viable option since I'm taking it of my own free will (I was even told I don't need to be doing it). Busines Management is cool too. Nothign brilliantly excitingly great but it's not too deathly dull.
Not much to report dreamwise at the moment, I'm going to ease into it over teh next two weeks then go crazy on it in the summer hols.
My head feels bizarre right now, like theres blood pooling at the bottom of my brain but not reaching the top of it. Weird.
Anyway, Matt Out.
LDs so far: 0

Whoa

Had a very strange dream about a group of superheroes battling their way through huge rooms full of enemies. The best one was without a doubt, the soft fluffy marshmallow hugging bunnies. Read that again and see if you don't laugh. I dare you. Weirdness.

Left Alone in Empty Place

I've been hit with this irritating feeling of apathy and general directionlesness that afflicts me every so often. It starts out with something trivial like not wanting to play games and then suddenly everything seems pointless. It sounds like a kind of depression, but I'd rather not think of that. Because thinking about it will make me more depressed and that kind of depression is the kind I can't abide. Pull myself together and get back on the horse, along with another bunch of cliches, pick your favourite. I don't care what people say, I'm not going to break down in sympathy for people who are "depressed" because their job sucks or their marriage is going down the creek. News flash, everybodies job sucks, no marriage is perfect and that silver lining ain't always there. Deal with it.
And with feeligns vented I feel better already. Horrible nasty emo moment there.
I need to make a real effort to record my dreams and do all the other things I've said I'll get around to. I need to stop being so lazy about it, do the right things, get fit etc etc.
Blogging strikes me suddenly as very superficial, defeating the point of a diary by putting it on display but I suppose it helps to get feedback on things that happen to you from objective outsiders.
I've decided each time I'm going to make a little statement here everytime I blog, staing something I'm going to try and do in a dream. My first choice is walking up walls. I will walk up a wall.
Picked up the new Gorrillaz album, its different to what I'm used to but it's quite nicely rhythmic.
My exams are looming closer and closer. I'm not too stressed, I know I can do it, I just put in the remaining work now and it'll be a cinch. Hopefully this relaxed outlook will irritate someone.